Last year marked the 7th year of my Human Design experiment. Once it was ALREADY one or two years, then ONLY five, it felt like I hadn't even started. And now the numbers have completely lost their meaning: life takes its course, and the main task is not to disturb it.
The changes happened from year to year, but the fourth year was particularly memorable. I had just started my analyst training when, quite unexpectedly, all the mental knowledge I had gathered up to that point slipped down into the body. All these centres, channels, Not-Self and other beautiful mental constructs migrated out of my head and into every cell. It is like a man who has lived all his life in the mountains, dreaming of the ocean, reading, watching films, exploring, and then suddenly he comes to the shore. The alchemy happens only in that moment he does KNOW.
I've been going through a similar transformation in 2010, when I switched to a vegetarian diet. At that time, there was also a kind of change in the body every year. This went on for 7 or 8 years and then stopped.
In the case of Human Design, it has powerfully expanded and changed my consciousness and outlook on life, in addition to the body mutation. And I have a strong feeling that seven years is not the end at all, as there are still unresolved topics and, importantly, an interest in exploring them.
But in fact they are only details, and the most important and meaningful themes of life are no longer an issue.
- I live myself and my life. There are no facts here, it's a purely subjective inner feeling. It would be wrong to say that I wasn't before. There were times when everything was fine and other periods when I desperately felt in the wrong place, surrounded by the wrong people. And it all happened blindly, by accident. By now few years have passed with a fairly stable sense of the rightness happening in my life. Even if it is not the most comfortable or pleasant.
- I am a Projector, so such a feeling grows mainly from the fact that there are mostly "my" people around me. People who see and recognise. I am overwhelmed with gratitude to everyone and the world! In general, my relationships with people have improved dramatically.
- I am taking responsibility for my life and my choices. Again, Human Design didn't discover something new, it gave me practical tools for what I was already striving for. Strategy and Authority are so simple and yet so complex.
- The dreaded and terrifying Not-Self hasn't gone anywhere, but its voices have become a background having a small influence on the course of my life.
Perhaps only the Open Ajna centre, whispering things like "You don't know anything...", still periodically slows me down on the path. But in my case it's completely open, the kind of centres that Ra used to call 'your final exam'. Whatever that means, as I obviously didn’t pass this test so far.
- I have gone beyond my boundaries. This is what surrender to a form is all about. Our mind is very narrow, our body also has its limits, but they are incomparably wider. So if you trust it, you can have a much more interesting and exciting experience in life. And a repetitive, boring series will turn into an adventure thriller, a colourful drama, an aesthetic arthouse film or any other genre you like. And at this point I haven't even started…
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Feel free to share the results of your Human Design experiment. Even if you only just begun the journey, are you seeing any changes?
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